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« on: August 31, 2008, 08:15:29 am »
I'm returning to RAF diet and thought that while recording my progress and observations during my transition that I would also take a moment to come up with some goals for myself so that I have an idea of what it is that I want to get out of the RAF diet.
1. I want to be able to think clearly. I am dizzy, disoriented, or fully insane when I eat cooked food(especially dairy) and can only maintain the focus to read if I've not eaten during the day. I do not have energy to think about complicated matters on a raw vegan diet. So ultimately, I hope that including raw meat into my diet will provide the energy to focus that I could not find in fruits and vegetables.
2. I want to become more active.
3. I want to heal the scars of having been raised on food devoid of nutrition. I was raised on hamburger helper and hot pockets for the majority of my life. The only vegetables I had were lettuce salads topped with gobs of creamy dressing(which had high fructose corn syrup and preservatives, no less). I had horrible acne for years, which returns when I eat cooked food, and which has left my face, neck, chest, back, shoulders, arms, and legs with horrible scars. I feel really bad about my scars and they make me very nervous around women, for obvious reasons.
Now my own experiences with the diet have only truly just started today since I needed a meat to eat that didn't taste like I was chewing on a dirty fish tank. I've got a cut of calf's liver that I'm eating and I am surprised to find that it tastes alright. My stomach has become very acidic after swallowing small bits of it, which I find very warm and pleasing. I am thinking that I will swallow my future bites without chewing because I do no notice it becoming broken down by chewing, because chewing causes an undesirable taste in my mouth(a bit like raw egg yolk), and because it goes down very easily without chewing if I bite off small bits at a time. Also, most carnivores do not chew their meat but let the acidity of their stomach break it down for them. If my stomach has become more acidic, surely it can break small pieces down to some functional degree?
I am eating my liver with two cloves of chopped garlic(which I crave more than life itself) and some salt, which I find myself easily growing deficient of since I started drinking distilled water. It tastes a bit like a tangier version of the liverwurst that my grandmother would spread on sandwiches for me when I was a child though the texture is obviously much different!
So far, most of my trouble with raw eggs and raw liver is with staring my food down before actually putting it in my mouth. Once it's in my mouth I usually don't have a problem with it. I'm going to go back to my liver now so wish me luck in achieving my goals.