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« on: August 10, 2008, 11:54:44 pm »
Thanks Kyle. I think I will. I am also very hopeful.
Tyler, I picked up a grocery load on Friday to feed me for about 4 days. I picked up [all beef] shoulder steaks, liver, and marrow bones. I decided that for those "impulsive eating" moments I should pick up fruits and vegetables [and I just likem anyway], so I bought oranges, limes, plums, raspberries, avacados and tomatoes.
I just want to let you guys know that I did grow up eating the crappiest food, and over the past few years doing a lot of dietary transitioning I have learned to eat only healthy foods and it has become a lot easier for me. There are times when I just relapse for some reason or another. My mind is incredibly scatty and I lose track of things and sometimes it's like I can't manage 'how' to do what I need to do. But once I slip into the habit that gets around it, that fits with what I'm wanting to do, it's a lot easier.
I think a lot of my problems with feeling really crappy has something to do with my body switching over from sugar/carbs. I do not know much scientifically but I have had vegetarian and fruitarian stints that went on for quite a while and I don't think I had anything to really transport these sugars from my body [nor really a way for my body to USE them!], so what happens to them? I've mostly urinated clear before, especially if I eat a lot of fruit/sugar, and when I started eating raw fats I urinate yellow instead. Also, I know at some point in the past my experience with sugars changed.. the usual highs and lows associated with them just went to a whole different level. It's like someone who uses drugs so much that the high and low isn't really there anymore on the same level but the drug is still needed. Know what I mean? When I started eating fats again it's like those sugar highs and lows became more noticable like they were before everything went out of wack on such a high level.
I ran out of most of my fruit and vegetables now and I think it will do me good to wean off the fruit for now, lessen the intake. For some reason I do think I should continue eating avocados. But yea, I think any eating impulses comes from something happening with my sugar levels, and a sugar addiction. It's a very neurotic feeling and I find that it "flushes out" after the raw fats get a chance to settle in. [The blood returns to my face!]
Does that make sense to you guys, any related experience?
Edit: BTW... out of those foods I buy, the shoulder steak is organic as well as the fruits and veggies. The liver and bone marrow is not organic. I have been contacting some shops in Toronto and did make an order for organics and I hope it'll make a difference. I also know that the place I made an order for the organics with sells organic everything else and they also have grass fed beef which I was glad to hear so I hope to be buying some of that.