Ok, so this has nothing to do with raw paleo, but as a young inexperienced person i was hoping to get some advice maybe?
So the thing is, im in a new relationship with a guy i really like (long distance, but lets not get into that..), hes the brother of my friend who lived on my floor during my 1st yr of university (just ended), and on the last week, the 3 of us went out, and me and this guy really hit it off..we've been in touch ever since.
So on one of our 1st skype chats where we were getting to know each other a bit more, we started talking about one night stands/things and he was telling me hes not like that and he would never go further than kissing on the 1st date, and also when he kisses a girl its never a one night thing and he believed im not like that either. I told him i'm that in the past,. yes, i have kissed guys and it was only a one night thing, but he's right, im a "good girl" and wouldnt go further on a 1st date etc. This is the honest truth, but the thing is, i made a mistake in the past where i did go further on the 1st date...it only ever happened once, mainly because i felt i was young and should just take a chance and do it cuz thats what i felt like doing at the time. I realised later that ONSs are not for me, and its not something i'd do again.. I kinda wanted to tell him, but i also didnt wanna screw anything up as it was the beginning of our r/s, and also i'd rather not say sth like that over skype where i cant gauge the other person's reaction..
Well i was ok with that, but yesterday i started thinkin about it and feeeling bad about it somehow. at night we were texting each other, and i was telling him i was feeling down because i was dwelling on a mistake i made in the past (i didnt tell him what it is ) and he was reassuring me that everyone makes mistakes and the most important thing is not to worry about them, lifes too short, etc etc. He also said he was glad i was telling him this because it shows i trust him and he trusts me too..
So basically, what im asking, is....should i be feeling this bad? Is that mistake something i should tell him, or should i leave it in the past because it dosen't matter anymore? Should absolutely everything be out in the open, even stuff thats not relevant anymore? was i being dishonest by not telling him? What should i do???