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« on: May 28, 2012, 03:48:03 am »
My food doesn't come out recognizable at all unless there's seeds from the fruits I eat, which are the only thing you would call recognizable. The seeds are what help me tell how fast things go through, otherwise I can only try to recognize things by colour.
I have been trying to be in the sun a lot more, too, my car is convertible and now that it's summer I've taken the top off so now I get sun on my face whenever I drive. I kind of hate vegetables, so I haven't eaten any green/leafy stuff, and especially not any cooked roots.. the only edible cooked root I can even think of is potatoes. I don't really eat low carb because I do eat fruit and honey too, and I drink raw milk and eat raw cheese. It's just difficult because the stuff is so expensive that I can't really afford to buy enough to fatten up on, which is one of the reasons I want my own chickens too, so I can have good high quality eggs to eat everyday for a good source of raw animal proteins and fats.
As far as cuts of meat go, I'm really picky with the meat I like the taste of, and I also don't have a lot of choice. There's no farms anywhere near close enough to me to drive to once a week to get my meat from, I've tried looking on eatwild and everything. The meat I was talking about going brown and tasting bad was not from trader joe's at all.
I'm pretty sure my dad wouldn't let me buy my own fridge to keep in my room, we already have two fridges, and another, even small one, would probably take up too much electricity. My dad also does not want me eating in my room, and wants no food in my room (even though I always eat and have food in my room anyways) but he definitely would not let me have a fridge in my room.
I am trying to tell both my parent as often as I can about eating better, only my Mom is more receptive of the things I tell her (except in some matters of raw vs cooked) but the problem is that she has no extra money to buy organic or grass-fed or anything like that.. she can only buy what she can afford, and commercial food is a lot less expensive. My Dad just doesn't care too much, even if I were to convince him of what is healthy and what isn't he doesn't even care about eating healthy and always says how he's just going to die someday anyways, and he doesn't want to be old and live to be 100 years old or anything like that.
I might try meditation, though I don't even really know how, and the one type of meditation I looked into could only be taught if you paid large sums of money, and I couldn't really find any really good free instruction, so I gave up.. and I don't remember what it was called, either. but I might try looking into just meditation altogether.
Yes, my Mom and me are adults -- The thing is, my parents have been divorced since I was 7 years old, they are not back together but they are good friends, and through great misfortune my Mom has lost her company and all her money and her house, she had no where else to go and no where to live, and my Dad was gracious enough to let my Mom move in with us. This house, every last penny put into this house has been only my Dad's money, the house is completely his and his alone, and I do not even pay rent because I need the money to buy my food, I don't know the exact situation with my Mom but I think she pays a much lower rent than my Dad would have liked to be paid to pay for the extra electricity and water and bills like that. But all the money put into the house itself has been paid by my Dad so this house is his, and he has every say in what goes on in it, no matter of "vote" because we are both only here because he lets us be here.