@kingsalmon We realize all those things and are still concerned. Tyler posted here very frequently, so for him to suddenly drop off the map is unusual behavior and concerning. Yes, in your case you don't post frequently and don't consider us your friends, so if you left it would not set off alarms or concern here.

Can't the forum administrator determine his last location from the IP address?

If Europe is like the US, we can then look up the name of the homeowner at the registered IP address, go from there

What I ate today... some raw beef (left over from yesterday), supermarket cooked shrimp (it was pink not gray like the uncooked kind, but still cold), raw bone marrow with raw honey, and, my cheats - DD frozen matcha latte and a kit kat bar.  I think the latte cravings are for the creamy dairy in them.  The raw marrow is really creamy when it gets room temperature.  It's so good.  But I still have a hard time eating adequate calories when eating raw meat.

I'm worried right now.  So worried about whether I will be forced to take the jabb in order to keep my job.  I guess I could decide to be fired from my job for not taking it and preserve my health, which is already bad to begin with.  I actually have a problem that is under control through medication but I haven't specifically mentioned it here.  People who are on this medication have children with birth defects if they take it during pregnancy.  But it keeps my condition under control, to the point that I don't even realize I have it most of the time.  Some people who have gone off the medication have had their condition return after one or two years, even worse than previously.  I am afraid of how the jabb will make me deteriorate, maybe make my condition worse than ever.  So scared.  But what are my choices?  If I am fired, then what will I do?  I can't get another job because then every employer is going to make the jabb a condition for employment, and most of the other jobs will pay less than the one that I have.  It would have to majorly overhaul my life in order to not be forced to have this against my will - become homeless or something.  I hate Byden.  He is a terrorist thug.  With his speech, he has basically said to all Americans, "It's your money or your life."  If we give up our life (take the jabb) then we can keep our money (job).  If we keep our life (not take jabb), then we must give him the money (give up our job). Just like a thug in a dark alley.  He is despicable.  It should never come to the point where some greedy idiot in DC makes a decision concerning my private health. 

I want to be free, live without so many possessions anymore so that I don't have to worry about "losing" things.  Just get rid of possessions because they hold you back.  The big one that ties everyone to their jobs in the US is the "health benefits" (as if anyone has actually benefited from them in the past 4 decades... we just get sicker and sicker here in the US).  If you have no insurance, you better own nothing at all because the "heroes" in the healthcare field must be paid greatly for their good deeds... it's not done out of the goodness of their hearts.

Poppy, I drink coffee but it's a crutch.  Lattes are my addiction.  For me, I know it's bad but until I'm healed, I'm dependent on it for simply getting through the day sometimes.  Especially in winter in Pennsylvania when I wake up and it's so dark, I can barely move when I get up (really).

However, there is a guy who has been raw primal for years and he drinks turkish coffee.  His name is Boban and he is on youtube as "thefirstoneofmykind."  He used to be a wrestler and now he does security work, I think.  He has many videos of eating raw meat and high meat and he is really strong.  But he continues to like turkish coffee and I guess it doesn't cause him any ill effects.  Here is his channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_pIjiXmJ4fyIBBk0Y6FY8w

You should download any videos of his that you like because he keeps getting censored.  He was kicked off of instagram and tiktok.

Thanks MarkR and everyone.  Dark-chocolate liver sounds good, lol.

Chicken update - I'm wanting to eat less chicken now.  I liked the taste before, but now what I like most is the raw chicken marrow and chicken blood inside the bones.  It has a spicy taste to it, like the spices I use.  So, I really want whatever has that taste to it.

I think I am going through a detox, as they say here, because today I don't feel so great.  But, when I try to eat 100% raw, I eat a lot less and I think I'm not getting enough calories. 

Today I ate some ground beef (grass fed) from the butcher.  But it was previously frozen.  It has more of the spice taste to it than the chicken, but a lot of red meat still has a kind of anemic taste and is not really bloody enough. 

So an update on the chicken livers.  This time I got Bell & Evans Air-Chilled chicken livers from a local supermarket.  They are fed grain but no antibiotics.  Well, they are great.  I can't eat a whole lot of them at once, but the taste is just on the other side of mild.  It's the first liver that I actually want to eat it raw and I don't gag or grimace!  You can tell the difference between these livers and the others that I got.  These chicken livers are a dark red color and the others that tasted so bitter were pale and pink-yellow looking.  So, if you see Bell & Evans chicken livers, don't be afraid to buy and eat them.  They are good!  I wish all the meat could be this good quality.

Hopefully I can find beef liver that tastes this good one day.  I always find beef liver extremely bitter, and I've even drove over a half-hour to a farm to get grass-fed organic beef liver.  One thing I find odd about grass-fed beef liver is that, in addition to the bitterness, it has a "medicinal" taste to it, if that makes sense (the ones I've tasted anyway)...not pleasant.

I'm still finding it hard to eat 100% raw because of the social difficulty.  I have to eat alone and hide my meals.  But I know it's also an excuse that I use in order to not change, because change is both painful and exciting at once.  When one thing changes, everything must change... I really believe that is true.  If you are unhealthy and you become healthy, all the energy in your life must change because you are essentially a "new" person.  This unspoken energy is everywhere; people pick up on each other's moods all the time and it affects everything (at least for me, maybe that is why I eat bad food a lot in order to numb myself to not pick up on things).  So, if you have an energy mis-match to your environment after you heal yourself, you can't stay in that same environment.  The energy has to match, just like heat transference in physics. I know maybe this sounds weird/absurd to people, but I know it is true.  So, if I don't match my environment anymore, then what will I do?  Must leave the things that make life secure; this is the reason underneath, I think.

At the end of the day, only poor, stupid and bored people reproduce. It is that simple, really.

I think you are going a bit bonkers here.

Although I personally don't want to have kids, reproduction is simply the natural result of healthy and correctly functioning animals/humans. It is only within the past 100 years or so that people were able to make a "choice" about this part of life. 

There are some good reasons, both personally and evolutionarily, to have children. Saber already mentioned the fact of having caretakers in your old age. This is how it would have been naturally before the invention of sick care homes for profit.  Also, more people in a group means more protection from others and help with acquiring resources for survival (think groups of people needed for a hunt, gathering foods during a harvest etc.)

Yours and my perspectives are the unnatural ones and really contrary to survival.  But we are what we are.

I also can't determine what the real agenda of the elites is. Simultaneously they are accused of actively decreasing world populations through their vegan and climate agendas being forced on people but at the same time pulling back women's reproductive rights to have more tax payers for the national debt...they are counterintuitive.

@political atheist

Be nice.  Why don't you explain your position and give him some advice instead of insulting someone?

Not every new person is familiar with all of Aajonus's ideas.  He's here because he generally agrees with this way of life, so he's an ally, not an enemy. 

Is there anyway there can be a chatroom on this site for live discussions?  Or a place on discord?  It might be nice to have

@Sabertooth

Thanks for being understanding.  I really think you are most likely right about being affected by chemicals and what_not in the environment.

I know I sounded really pessimistic, but to me, unquestioned optimism in raising kids would be the same as saying "I'm going to sail around the world!" And not even stop to consider all the difficulties that would entail, nevermind preparing for them. There is also simply the lack of instinct/lack of will on my part. I know some women are so desperate to have a baby they will go to almost any length (no matter how cringeworthy). But I can honestly say that never once in my life have I had a "baby craving"/insatiable desire to be pregnant or whatever. At this age I doubt that would ever change. So, in order to have kids you actually have to WANT to have them in the first place. Even if I was completely optimistic, I just don't have the instinct or want to have them. Never have. I do have some maternal instincts, though. Like if I hear a kid crying or in distress it makes me stop and I do want to protect them/comfort them.

Also, the forced brainwashing of children, problems with  online bullying, parental controls over kids being granted to the govt makes anything about even raising children extremely unappealing because of the overwhelming problems and lack of discretion to make your own choices. I can't even imagine anything joyful about it.

Pairing up? Why. Men don't love or protect women. We had to become the men to protect ourselves...

Just needed to vent about this and this is the only forum on the whole internet anymore that won't censor.

Apparently, it is now "in vogue" and extremely popular to dislike British people, simply for the sake of them being British.  I didn't know about this, and I think this is ridiculous, to hold someone accountable for what ancestors did 300 to 400 years ago, but that is the "logic" of some people.  I'm not British myself, but I like them and many things about their culture.

Anyway, on this other forum, I noticed a person who had this negative/harassing attitude toward British and basically asked them why.  My supportive posts and their answers were totally deleted.  There were no swear words, threats, or any epithets or anything like that exchanged.  There was absolutely no reason to remove what was posted.  It would have been educational for everyone on that forum to read the exchange. 

I am astounded at the censorship being propagated by governments and individuals with god-complexes.  Just allow people to be seen for exactly who they are.  If they want to harass others on the basis of nationality (which is discrimination by this person), then let the whole world see it.  And my support for the British person who was unjustly attacked should also be allowed to be seen.  Then let people decide who they want to talk to... who is exhibiting the hate in the situation.  It is not the side that you think.

I don't even know where it is possible to have an honest conversation with anyone anymore.  It used to be the internet, but now it is being so censored/regulated that there is no free thought or freedom of expression at all, to the detriment of all of humanity.  There is no learning or questioning anymore, just indoctrination and religious worship of state-sponsored ideology.  We are being forced to worship the state/government instead of our own philosophies.  Horrific.  Where can I go to get away from this crap?

Is it ok to eat chicken gallbladder?  Are there any benefits from it?  I just bought some chicken livers, and noticed something weird with one of them.  It looks just like in this picture: https://jen-elise.blogspot.com/2010/04/chicken-gallbladder-surprise.html 

I'm finding the liver itself already extremely bitter, and I don't know if I can even finish it.