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« on: July 12, 2018, 05:13:10 am »
I haven't updated in quite a while, but I'm still healing and have done so for the last couple of months so I figured it was about time that I updated this journal.
At the moment I've changed my diet to eating exclusively raw ground beef + back fat, while eating 300-500g of chicken/veal/beef liver every other day. The reason why I started eating the liver was because I couldn't get rid of all the candida toxins swerving around in my blood in a normal way. The raw meat would get those toxins in my system (meaning my body is slowly cleaning up) but the fat didn't take care of the toxins enough that I didn't suffer too much from symptoms.
You see, the anxiety that I get when I am full of candida toxins is unbearable. I start to overthink everything and also have to take a nap because I can get very tired all of a sudden, this usually happens in the afternoon (probably because of my body being overloaded by candida die-off/toxins). Eating liver quickly alleviates these symptoms, which has probably something to do with candida-induced free-radicals being cleaned up by the raw liver that I consume. I found a source for organic chicken livers that is rather cheap and usually in stock, so I should be able to maintain liver consumption for the time being.
That being said, I have noticed some signs that I've healed quite a bit from candida (or whatever is causing my issues). The first thing that I got when I started the raw primal/paleo diet was shaking and wobbling all over my body. Lots of people on the candida diet forum attested to this saying they had the same bodily sensation when they started the diet. It persisted and still persists for months but has slowly been decreasing in scale. I now only feel like 5/10 wobbles when I eat raw meat whereas I would feel around 30/50 wobbles when I started this way of eating. I figured this is my body slowly being cleaned of the candida, as toxins are expelled.
Another healing sign has been the enjoyment of music. Somewhere around 2 months ago I reached a new 'level' of music enjoyment - and all art/life enjoyment, for that matter - making me come to the conclusion that what I am doing is working and worth it. The whole reason I started this way of eating/experimenting with diet was because of depression, so seeing results in that field is definitely a very important development in my journey to health.
I am not sure if other people that healed candida had the same problems as I had. With that I mean the idea that as candida dies, the toxins circulate in the bloodstream, resulting in my candida symptoms being very active and sometimes even as bad as when I started this diet. I hope that when I mostly get rid of excess candida, my symptoms will all be gone at the same time, that would support my theory of candida toxins constantly being released as you fight the disease.
I hope I can report back to you guys in some time with more positive results. Even though it sometimes the diet can seem pointless because my symptoms just seem to return, there are always other days where I feel better than I've felt in a very long time, reminding me that I am slowly getting better.