Your experience reminds me of my own healing journey and there are a number of parallels to my own hellish past experiences.

I also had chronic Epstein Barr syndrome, with elevated eosinophils, and tested for high levels of heavy metals in a hair analysis, as well as blood parasites.

Viral phenomenon are not fully understood, but I believe Mononucleosis is the bodies attempt to correct severe imbalance, and to desperately try to repair system wide genetic damage.

This issues resolved for me only after switching over to a raw meat based diet. I will warn you that most pork and chicken is toxic and will aggravate vial and parasitic conditions.

Raw fatty meat from clean pasture raised ruminant animals is the staple food I have used to cleanse and purify my body and regenerate from a cellular level. A pure source of extra high quality fat is essential to cleanse the tissues an initiate the full healing capacity of the body.

Also consider any factors that may contribute to your condition. Drink spring water from glass containers, Stop consuming synthetic vitamin supplements, or using harsh cleansing protocols. Try nude sunbathing for vitamin D, breathing exercises, walking meditation. 

There are still some who have the disipline and intuition to acknowledge proper methods of use.  I do believe that current research is also showing the benefits if psilocybin mushrooms however i do not believe their methods are illustrating the powerful potential of healing and enlightenment possible. 

Its been a while since Ive revisited this threat, thanks for stopping by to visit, its been a while since we conversed!

Yes indeed, I may be the last of a endangered breed. Key words like discipline and intuition do not translate into the world of authoritarian pharma-narco state. These organic substances are tools that be used for good or for ill....and just as I wouldn't trust certain people to operate heavy machinery or to consume alcohol, there are most certainty people who are not meant to delve into these hidden realms of the mind. With that said I am most concerned with the power of the State to be able to dictate to a population what states of minds are legal?? and what will get you dehumanized and thrown into a cage?

In my mind, the government mandated Drugging of the population through vaccination, while simultaneously denying responsible persons like my self the right to choose what goes into my body; is the absolute pinnacle of hypocrisy, corruption and tyranny. Witnessing first hand the rising Munchhausen by proxy police state...were the government labels everyone as being diseased vermin and then demands total authority over every aspect of our lives...was a little too much for me to passively witness; as I have done with past injustices without taking appropriate action.

Before I went total vigilante mode, I was neck deep in my own personal research using a raw meat based ketogenic diet in combination with micro-dosing. I agree Jessica that there is not likely to be the proper studies in the mainstream, to ever prove many my own theories but I will post my general thoughts hear and perhaps others can carry the douche after Im gone up the river. I am convinced that there is a synergy between the raw animal based keto diet and psychedelic's that is neuro-regenerative. I was attempting in my haphazard way to emulate our primal evolutionary conditions from which our hominid ancestors may have been able to double their brain size over a short evolutionary period using such a combination of high density nutrition and entheogenicly induced epigenesis.

I share a far out theory of many cutting edge researchers that Mushrooms can help the brain rewrite the neuropathways of the mind, allowing the personality and creative intelligence to continue to develop and grow years after mainstream science claims our behaviors become set in their ways. There is now clinical studies and personal accounts of micro dosing being used to get people off of these harmful prescription psychiatric  drugs.  For sure this form of renegade research would never be accepted within the ivory towers of establishmentarian science; though perhaps someday the right people will inquire more deeply into these matters from the raw keto nuanced perspective that I am proposing.

The nuances are multifaceted; for example; there are many people who are neurologically maladapted in various ways so that using psychedelic's without addressing the underlying imbalance may not be the right approach. People who are already lacking in their ability to replenish their reserves of neurotransmitters because of poor nutrition, or past drug abuse, may not be well enough to use mushrooms to effectively override the past traumatic programing patterns. The hardware and or software of many people just isnt capable of supporting the upload of altered consciousness.

I not one of those naïve fools who think that Mushrooms or Marijuana can magically reverse chronic mental problems in anyone without any risk...but I do contend that they can be used judiciously as part of a wholistic healing practice which incorporates many other modalities of health and healing. I come from a place of terrible suffering and for me personally when I was sick 15 years ago and trying to get well, on the couple occasions I tried mushrooms, it actually made me feel worse. Marijuana also didn't seem to help when I was at my worst. It was as if my body was so depleted and toxic that it couldn't make use of the experience in any constructive way, and so I would never recommend these things as a treatment for anything in and of themselves.

Only after going raw did I choose to revisit these things and to my surprise there was a totally different effect. Because I was in a better place both physically and mentally it seemed I was much better able to benefit from the experience. After which I seemed to be better able to let go and Transend the painful memories of my past trauma, while maintaining a polyanna optimism for the future. Again I have never advocated for willy nilly taking of these substances, and advise those who are hell bent on going down that path to proceed with caution. There must be credence paid to the whole life approach that utilizes the synergy of a raw animal based Keto diet with micro dosing, that also incorporates healthy amounts of meaningful work, family time, fresh air, nude sunbathing, plenty of sex into the mixture. Obviously there are too many variables to conduct a scientific study based upon my own life experiences. Its likely of these hypothesises could never be proven one way or another, given the hopelessly perverse scientific establishment completely is off the reservation, chasing after phantom strains of computer generated RNA demons.

Through the beginning phases of this plandemic I was micro dosing regularly. Taking no more than a gram a day of dried mushroom, and usually taking breaks. Three days on three days off, or else following instinctive stops. During the height of hysteria in early 2020 there was a strong notion, that if we were to be put on long term  lockdowns at least I would have a good doomsday berserker stash for emergencies. So having a half pound of quality mushrooms and a sheet of acid seemed like a reasonable plan. Of course one of the effects of these things is that I completely lost fear of material worldly consequences or even death. I may of became a little overwhelmed by a messiah complex and inflated grandiosity which has always been latent with my being; this lead to some midnight creative activism expeditions, leading to the situation I now find myself in.

Wow its been a wild ride, and I have a feeling that the real fun is just beginning. Some of what I say here is in good humor, much of it is truly from the crazy heart, long worn upon the sleeve since landing here so many years ago. I try always to act in good faith and to write in Ernest but often regret not being able to better communicate many of the deeper visions insights and all too human experiences.

Rants over for now, will report back soon with update, anyone still out there feel free to ask questions here or through PM 

I think the Queen and royal family have the best, in that part of the world, though im not sure that they would be willing to share any with the commoners??

I tried several brands of "natural' " Organic" "Free ranged" eggs at the stores in London and wasnt very happy.

I know this is vegan pravda, but I tend to agree with the vegie people about how terrible most chicken production systems are
https://www.peta.org.uk/features/crappy-eggs-not-happy-eggs/

He lived reclusively and always communicated with me through his forum avatar.

Whats his legal name, perhaps we could look for some public records of his last location?? 

I don't tolerate dairy well at all, I can drink small amounts of raw cream, and eat small amounts of raw sharp cheddar, but if I eat it for more than a few days in a row, I will always have some digestive issues.

I would also caution against pigfat, because its very difficult to find good quality.

I personally prefer pasture raised sheep fat as my primary fat source.

Good call, I agree the kid needs a little time out. Arguing over philosophical differences is one thing, but even among the most open minded elders here, there is a limit to the level of belligerent abuse and disrespectful pigheaded delusions we should tolerate.

Sometimes when a fledgling with an eggshell mind learns of the dark side of life, it can break the spirit to the point of nihilism. Does the poor fool not realize the NWO is actually a quite ancient evil, and humanity has been fighting this war against these death cults from the beginning of history; there have actually been times in the past that were much more full of misery, and yet the human spirit lives on through the ages, and that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger!   

I actually find this obtrusive and asinine abuse quite entertaining. Being called a retarded female is a hilariously absurd insult, and it makes me smile

"Ive never wanted something Rational" Alanis Morsette

I personally like and respect females of all ranges of intelligence, more so than I do most males, so its not insulting to me to be identified as having feminine traits. Though I admit the protective side of my masculine nature is a bit offended, and would like to slap you upside your silly incel face for being so derogatory toward women within my presence...so in leu of a fist fight, I insist a virtual spanking is in order!!

With such attitudes its no wonder why one would be sexually confused and hateful, tisk tisk. These perniciously anti Love of humanity sentiments are becoming extremely pervasive in modernia, and its a most unfortunate state of affairs that so many are so abjectly hateful towards human existence that they, if given the power, would deny the right of future generations to reproduce the experience life and the chance to evolve into mother earths wildest dreams come true.

The constant straw-manning is a bit tiresome...I can understand from a misanthropic perspective its pointless to have children, I will even grant you that this realm of existence can be at times extremely twisted and wicked...but it is a bit unbalanced to just generalize all of human existence into some kind of pointless fatalistic cycle of death, and label all parents as demonic for fulfilling their biological imperative to recreate . ( Would it be fair to speculate that someone with this viewpoint probably has some unresolved mommy and daddy issues?)

Life can be a tangled web indeed, and perhaps we humans are the result of coupling between the spider mothers and hell boys, if so then so be it. I say embrace your predatory nature! Eat Flesh and screw to your hearts content, and then go fourth and multiply;  seeding your little hell-spawns far and wide...mewhahahaha
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wi7QiUORwN0

Im trying to evoke just smidgen of humility and humor to a subject matter that is indeed very dark and dire....and being dense as a fence you don't notice the puns. The reference to "Ad- Hominid Attack" is a direct accusation of misanthropic nihilism!   

I don't deny that the universe is from a certain perspective a catabolic monster, but this state of death and depravity is merely the other side of the coin of life. The suffering is the price we pay for admission to the greatest show in the cosmos! The human experience must be payed for from time to time with the blood of the innocent. Its unfortunate that many Men these days have too much sensitivity to stomach the facts of life, but this too is also a part of the dance of Kali!

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1kmKpjk_8E

Its true, Im just a hopelessly braindead love Zombie with an insatiable hunger for nonsensical sensual experiences; oh well Ive been called worse

Im still unsure how a mans embracing and reveling in the Estrous cycles of the feminine spirit can be seen as such an offensive phenomenon. This anti-reproductive trope does seem to be a pervasive sentiment among the new generations coming of age, and these kind of discussions may be helpful in trying to understand and hopefully challenge the anti-life worldview.

There was a time in my youth before having regular intercourse, and becoming fully addicted, that I would feel jaded by much of the modern perversion of the Game of Love, and to some extent I can easily relate to the Malthusian and misanthropic attitudes of anti -breeders. Long ago I made a decision to simply embrace the animal instincts and to stop fighting so hard against these primal inclinations. Perhaps there isn't any logic in giving oneself over to the animal lust, but I have personally found that trying to fight and repress it, can be even more of an insanity, and lead to even greater unhappiness, than just giving in to temptation.

Ideally if the endocrine systems are in sync, and the biological and emotional balance is compatible, then a mutuality can be formed between mates. The emersions within the phenomenal signaling feedback loops, and the regular releasing of oxytocin, will create a physical and emotional dependency, which can also be called a healthy pair bonding relationship( depending on how you chose to look at it) Its unfortunate that some view this evolutionary processes which was essential for the development of higher levels of human intelligence and cooperation, with such negativity; but alas to each their own....
 

If a political atheist insist on beating this dead horse named logic, morality, ethics; I will indulge...

If one can find nothing logical about having a loving family, nothing moral about establishing the transgenerational transfer of knowledge between parent and child, nothing ethical about taking responsibility to shepherd children through the transformation of growing up;) then there can be no understanding between you and me!

For those who understand no explanation is necessary, for those who don't understand no explanation is possible!

Nobody provided any logical, ethical and moral reason to reproduce.

Only bored, poor(so they can get 'benefits' from gubment, 99% of women make children solely for this reason alone) and stupid people reproduce.

Most people were borne as accidents or were made so the parents can FINALLY dominate, abuse and use powerless human beings(children), since most people are slaves and are being dominated, used and abused since birth to death.

So yeah, there is ZERO moral, ethical and logical reason to reproduce.

Everything you breeders wrote here is totally  illogical and retarded. You are just regurgitating the BS that you was conditioned with since birth.

I modified a bit my original post:

ALWAYS remember! Please make as many children as possible, the pharmaceutical industry, the prison industry and the military industrial complex need more clients, while society needs more: fascists, totalitarian single digit iq nobodies(to enforce and carry out satan’s plans), communists, marxists, bolsheviks, leninists, SJWs, BLMs, socialists, mercenaries, welfare/benefit queens/kings, cartel members, broken homes, broken people, broke/bankrupt people from all points of views, hitmen, hitwomen, murderers, murderers wearing uniforms/badges, abused, abusers, drunkards, drug addicts, drug dealers, homeless, gang/mafia members, suicide victims, bullies, bullied, torturers, tortured, mentally and physically handicapped, racist group gang members. Hell also needs more residents. Also, the banks need more people in debt and the workforce needs more slaves to participate in the rat race as well. Add to the list if you will.

I rebuke such ad hominem attacks; I understand the cynical worldview extremely well, but I have also seen pure joy in the life of my own children, and couldn't care less if the pessimist of the world are not able to see the value and potential that is evident within the human experience of reproduction. 

Why does the reason for having children need to be qualified by logic or ethic or moral judgments?? The rest of creation doesn't meet any such criteria so why should the children of earth be held to such arbitrary standards?? "Its a fool who looks for logic in the chambers of the human heart"

I personally feel like children have given my life a deeper meaning, and a sense of home and belonging. I was nurtured and cared for as a child and grew up in a family, and there is something that seems so natural about continuing the cycle with a family of my own.

There are also plenty of purely materialistic and selfish motives under the surface if you dig deep, that could be construed as logical moral and ethical, for those who think in such terms....I have always had the hope that just maybe one day some of my many grandchildren will be close enough to me in heart and mind, to help care for me as I begin to age and can no longer provide for myself....I seriously doubt a state run nursing home would allow the kind of dignified environment for a raw carnivorous renegade such as myself. Hopefully if we are not all geocided by Malthusian's by then, I could live in a rustic cottage on the same property as some of my offspring and I can share my wisdom as well my foibles with future generations, and they can help provide me with Meat if I am no longer able to process my own animals.

@Sabertooth

I'm near your age(36) and female and I'm at the opposite end. It's never been a goal or wish of mine to be a mom. I never played house as a kid and never pretended any of my dolls or toys were my babies. I simply lacked that.

Then, around age 14, began sex ed in public school.  I got to see/hear on video exactly what a woman experiences when giving birth. I actually didn't watch, just listened to her scream as I counted the small flecks of gold in my desk...anything to distract myself from it. That cemented my decision, which I promised myself over 20 years ago now. I think it is the most humiliating, degrading, disgusting, atrocious experience any woman could ever have. It makes me recoil to this day. And that will never be me.

Intelligence doesn't really have anything to do with it. Maybe no fear of consequences? Or something like that. For a woman it could be a deadly experience...a punishment in a way. 

I agree with political atheist that it is only encouraged by govts now because they realize the falling birthrate means less taxes and fewer slaves for them. Good for me that my time is almost up.

As a pantheist, with existential tendencies who feels that it takes all kinds to make a world, I tend to see these fundamental differences in perspective as inevitable, given the widely divergent factors that we all are exposed to, that shape our worldview.

Rachel Carsons book "Silent Spring" expressed a powerful warning about the consequences of saturating the environment with hormone disrupting pesticides and chemicals. Not only did DDT reduce fertility in the birds, but the birds who where able to hatch their offspring, were witnessed to have diminished maternal and paternal instinct.

The correlation with hormone disrupters in animal observations to what is happening in human society is HUGE! These chemicals such as atrazine  can affect the sexual development and natural parental instincts in parts per trillion! Prenatal and developmental exposure diminishes the will and the drive to reproduce and form healthy sexual relations. Transgenerational hormonal birth control is also causing havoc on these delicate hormonal feedback systems. There was a study that showed that the Male chimps would avoid the females that have been treated with hormonal birth control. Birth control also disrupts the females judgement to chose mates of paternal virtue potential. The myriad of chemicals in the environment and constant use of personal care products have also distorted our pheromonal feedback systems, which evolved to guide the process of sexual attraction and the seeking of compatible mates. With all these confused and distorted signaling contamination, its no wonder so many humans are confused, Jaded, and hostile toward those who claim mating and reproduction can be a true blessing and healthy part of life!

This is not a man vs woman issue....these distortions have equally damaged both genders' ability to develop healthy matting pairs and nurture uninhibited parental instincts!